Thursday, October 20, 2011



This will be a short post anyway. Recently, I've always felt like running away from everything. Of course, I felt bad and I know I shouldn't do this. Most of the time I felt annoyed and by the time I realized, I've missed most of the precious time by doing nothing. Even now, I know that I have to do something, but I did nothing. Maybe I did something like trying to make meaning of the Japanese songs I listened to, and I came across thing song. I've listened to this song many many times before, but today, I decided to keep it with the translation in this post.

Brave Heart - Nerdhead ft. Kana Nishino


I realize the reason why I’m crying these tears
But I’ll overcome them, right now I’m looking up towards the sky

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

Let me flashback my life
Just like an instant is truly eternal
I showed various expressions and I tried to smile
Most moments my heart is painful and I wanna cry
I was crying inside my eyes
You behaved and were strong enough not to show tears
It is there if it stops once but games over

I feel that there isn’t a second chance anymore
And every day I think about that fear
The ideal I had is far from the heart
Surely everyone in this life comes together
Even if it's painful, I'll endure its trials and become strong

It’s going to take time but
I’ll take the chance to the last
Believe in yourself and just take a little step
Don’t worry you will not be alone anymore

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

I realize the reason why I’m crying these tears
But I’ll overcome them, right now I’m looking up towards the sky

Don’t run away

The rainbow towards tomorrow cannot been seen if you run away
(Don’t let it fall, Let’s go)

The heart feels like it is crushed (sometimes)
Because before your eyes face reality, you run away, (That’s why, That’s why)
It is an impossible thing the way it is now
And though I understand it, I can’t change it (Kana)

But when you're by yourself
Don’t tell a lie
(Hey, let it flow)
You can start walking again

Even when I am harsh, you show courage
(Keep go on and on)
You’re always beside me

I can feel those feelings
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

KEEP ON TRYIN’ ( Just try )
TRYIN’ ( and try )
JUST TRY(ippai mo hitori janai)
AND TRY not to lose ground by running away, you got to FIGHT BACK
To the top (to the top) from the streets (from the streets)
I’ll Try and Try (I’ll Try and Try) (TRY TRY)
Don’t lose one’s time, you can change and have some life (LIFE)

One life, failure after failure is life but once more we want to laugh at the end
I shine together we’re Fly’in to light
There won’t be a tomorrow without trouble
As for all times, wouldn’t everyone say there are mountains and valleys?
How can there be level roadways if I already stumbled over them once before?

I stand up again and begin to walk
How many times must I crawl even as I run and run after losing my breath?
When I don’t advance, life is a battle
You are your greatest rival

lalala I don’t miss the eyes of life
lalala life…my life

Failure after failure is life but once more
You can start walking

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe

I can feel those feelings beside you
When we are together, they even become stronger
When I seem to eventually lose myself
Believe yourself, believe
Don’t run away
The rainbow towards tomorrow cannot be seen if you run away 

Taken from

Personally I think it's a great song. だからシャプ、今から、歩き出すして下さい。逃げらない。

That's All~

Thursday, October 6, 2011


Assalamualaikum and こんばんは~

Yeah, I can see that this place is dusty... 久しぶりだね~Since I'm learning Japanese, I'm going to use quite a number of it. Hehe~

I've tried to make a steam bun today. To be exact, it was just now. How did it turn out? I tell you, it's utter disaster~ Haha~ As I was googling about how to make steam bun, I learned that we could make a lot of shape out of the dough. For example, bunny, porcupine, peaches and etc. etc. I tried to make bunny shapes bun it became hamsters. I don't really mind and put choc chips as the eyes (yep, I know it's kinda idiotic). Happily, I steamed it. It turned out the hamster became flat and the eyes were just like the tears of blood. Poor cute hamster become ugly after sauna (I don't even dare to look at it more than 5 seconds). Looks like I have to eat them by myself, because it's too ugly. Plus, I think I've killed the yeast in the dough by putting hot water in it. Well, my hands were too cold that I think it's lukewarm and ignoring the puffing water vapours that came out from the water. Silly me.

It's a good experience anyway. Yesterday, I've kinda managed to make the infamous Melon Bread (メロンパン)and though that Allah will grand my wish again today. Nah, Allah made me learn something this time. Sure it is kind of sad, especially after looking at the ugly flat hamster with 'bleeding eyes' and 'burst stomach'. I was thinking of not doing the steam bun ever again and kind of reflected something similar. 何ですか。

はい、はい。日本語の勉強です~It's about studying Japanese. To be honest, compared to last semester, this semester's Japanese is much much MUCH MORE tougher. I am lost right now especially with the kanji (漢字). We are now in week 8, every week, we will learn 12 kanji (Chinese characters) every week. I've only memorized until week 4 the meaning of the characters. Starting week 6, I couldn't even memorize the character itself. I'm sure lost as I've been left behind. If I don't have to study much last semester, but this sem, it's different. There was even a day that I felt so bored learning, and it's the first time I felt that way in Japanese class. Sure, my grades had dropped drastically, there was also several blank spaces everytime I answered my class quizes. It was sure a great culture shock. I even think of giving up.

However, my happiness came back today. I don't really care about how much I've been left behind. I'm so happy that today, I've learned some new about Japanese. I realized, I really love this subject. I've decided, I am going to use every chance that I have to learn this language.

I remembered that someone said liking something too much is not a very good thing to do. That time, I hadn't really thought about why I was so determined to learn this language, and why I like it very much. Today, I am sure, what I like is actually what I've seen in the Japanese anime and drama. The values that had been portrayed in the Japanese drama and anime are the things that attracted me the most. Even the Japanese lyrics attracted me to this language. So, I became curious, and kept asking why and how (all the WH questions)?

Why the Japanese directors want to portray that value? Where did they learn it? How could the mangaka think about that values? Why are they so intelligent? Aren't they just mangaka's who are busy with their deadlines? What/Who are their inspiration? and etc. etc. etc. Most of the time I really want to understand what the directors/ mangakas want to portray to the extend I think reading subtitles become a hindrance.

Most important, I want to know why we didn't become like that. Aren't we Muslims? Allah had taught us everything in the Quran, but why can't we portray that? They are not Muslim, but why do they value friendship more than us, why do they value lives more than us? From where did their strength come from? Why are they willing to do that? I've met Kak Linda who is living in Japan for 8 years last winter, and she approved, the values that I saw in the drama are the Japanese culture. I've been saved by Allah many many times through the animes/dramas. That's why, I have no choice but to learn this language. Peace~

I just want this post to be a reminder if I think of dropping out this language. Plus, no matter how ugly the reality that I will learn in the future, I should not give up. Similar to the steam bun, maybe I should try to make it again next time. Everything ends once we give up.

Alright~ That's it for today~

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Nothing much~

Assalamualaikum and Moshi2~

Recently, a lovely parcel came to me. Well, not that lovely as I have to pay for it. Uhuk3... But I'm really happy with it~

Yep... It's me in the parcel...

Wondering what the heck is that? That is what human call, Pen Tablet. Ohohoho~ It functions like a mouse (PC mouse not mouse mouse) but the different is we will use the pen to move the cursor. Suitable for sketching (amature sketchers as professional one will use tablets that are way more expensive that this) and signing documents in PC, laptop, etc etc etc. Of course, this is the cheapest that I could find.

Next~ Thanks to my brother Hadri for giving me lots of links for colouring tutorial, I found out that my previous colouring was really hideous. That time, I haven't bought the tablet yet, so using the PC mouse, I made a little bit modification on the previous picture.
Ne.. This is a little bit, right?
New colouring technique using photoshop... I learned from this link.
It's pretty easy but confusing as we have to keep changing layers making the neatness miserable.

Next~ I drew a new picture, as if the character is wearing a hijab. Ohohoho~
Thanks to my brother again for introducing SAI paint. It's easy to make the outline using this software. But I don't really know how to colour yet using Sai, so I use photoshop... The pen tablet is sure handy~

Creepy huh?

Last but not least, using Mira-chan sketch, I try to colour using Sai. Sorry Mira chan, I know that the original sketch is much better that this. After all, there are things that only you could do... So, It became like this.... Honestly, its easier using Sai than photoshop, and having a pen tablet sure is a bonus...

Ahahaha~ I know I know. I have to practice more especially on the shading and smaller details. For those who interested, don't give up~! You can search for many website tutorials on how to sketch, colour either using Sai or photoshop online~

That's all for today~
Jya~ Mattane~

Friday, March 18, 2011

Lalala~ -.-''

Assalam and Moshi Moshi~

Not much for today's post. I just want to post my first colouring experiment~ Taraa~~~

I definitely have to practice more on the shading... And the background, well, I've lost my pencil case so, I don't have any stationery to let me draw something... Credits to my brother Hadri for giving me the link on how to colour using photoshop... Hontou ni Arigatou~

Interested? Here's the link~

It's really helpful~

That's all for today~
Jya~ Mattane~ (I heard a Japanese saying this in front of me, so, probably this is the correct one.. hehe~)

Friday, February 25, 2011

Learning in Macquarie~

السلام عليكم~ (Assalamualaikum)
こんいちは~ (Konnichiwa)
and hello everyone~

I was just playing with the letters and happy with it...

Alhamdulillah... It has been a week of attending classes and I'm trying to get use to the new environment. So far, I enjoyed the classes, being able to laugh when others laugh... though most of the time staring at the lecture's face trying to understand what is he/she is saying. Okay, I admit. I understand literally what they said, but semantically (<-I wonder if this is correctly used) I don't really get it.. Hehe...

So what's the catch this sem? Jeng jeng jeng~

Ohohoho~ I'm so happy that I manage to take this course as my elective~

What's so interesting about it?

We have weekly online quiz~~~~
Weekly tutorial quiz~~~
A class test~~
Individual speaking test~
Group speaking test..
Examination... and...


Ura: You're giving up already?

At first, I'm not very sure about it my self. However, after trying to memorize all the hiragana within 48 hours, Alhamdulillah~ I manage to read hiragana texts now~ yep... like a kindergarten student... (and my head almost burst)

Well, somehow I realized that I really love Japanese language and InsyaAllah I'll put my heart and soul to learn this language... You shouldn't waste the chance given by Allah, right?

Not only for Japanese language, InsyaAllah, I'll try my best studying here...

That's all for today~

さようなら~(Sayonara... I'm not sure when to use Mattane thus, I'll use this for the time being...)

Thursday, February 17, 2011


Assalamualaikum, Konnichiwa and Hello Everyone~!

Happy New Year~~~~
Ura: That's waaaayyy too late...

Happy Chinese New Year~~?
Ura: That's too, late...

Salam Maulidur Rasul???
Ura: That's not too late... Salam...

Ohohoho... It seemed that I've been in a pretty long hiatus due to very limited access to the internet. Thus, I'm happy to tell that my first post in 2011 is done in Sydney~ Hurray~~~ (Q: What's the motive of being happy? A: Dunno...)

As you can see, it's the new layout. Is it nice? I think so, but lots of buttons went missing and I don't really know how to fix them. So, maybe I'll try it later. Sorry if it's inconvenient... Hontou ni gomenasai!!! (90 degree bow)

I've planned to post something before, but you can see that the plan is a complete failure. Nahh... Nothing important... Just want to show my first sketch of the year. I daydreamed that I was one of the character from Fairy Tail and this is what I manage to draw.

I don't really have the time to use the scanner, so I snap it using my phone camera...

Next, together with B. Ed TESOL Cohort 2 3rd Cycle IPG Kampus P. Pinang students, we departed to Sydney on the 10th of February. Well, to be exact, we departed on the 11th of February midnight.

I would like to thank some people for sending me off~

1) My parents of course~Thanks for everything Mama and Ayah~ Driving to KLIA, then straight back home must be tiring ne? Love both of you~

2) Mira-chan, Cai-chan and Apis Kamit (not in the pic)~
Mira-chan and Cai-chan arrival was a huge surprise~ Thanks Mira-chan for the trouble coming from UPSI, Cai-chan from UIA (Cai-chan even had an important exam the next day!) and Apis Kamit, who came straight after work (He's a MAS junior technician). Thanks a LOT!!!

Next, trip to Sydney~ I'll just show some of the pic okay? Visit my FB page for more~ (sape la nk tgk gmba die tu kn?)

Thanks seagulls for loving us~
Seagulls: You've paid us right?...

Thanks to the Seniors for guiding us~

That's All For Today~
Mattane Deshou~